Documenting Failure - Episode 6 - Detailed Timestamps
Detailed timestamps:
00:00:32 - Intro conversation begins
00:01:42 - Transition Sound Effect
00:01:44 - Start of podcast- intros, descriptions of who they are and what they look like
00:02:53 - Transition Music
00:02:58 - Guests begin talking about how the questions and topics being discussed are difficult, usually private and vulnerable. Fighting vulnerability in public, Access to Work, fears that come with funding cuts and the difficulty of reapplying for funds.
00:10:50 - Guests talk about applying for other jobs, how people comprehend disability, hidden disabilities, access riders, access language and differences in disability.
00:15:03 - Guests talk about labelling, infantilisation, trust in relationships with people you work with, trust with strangers, and collaborators.
00:20:39 - Talk about care work, blurring lines between relationships, dynamic disability and vulnerability.
00:23:27 - Transition Music
00:23:56 - Transition Sound Effect
00:24:00 - Toni Dee begins talking about comparing freelancing to corporate workspace where systems are in place to support people.
00:25:41 - Talk of Arts Council, grief, the struggle of not being paid enough and bereavement.
00:28:55 - Ray continues with the struggles of lack of support in grief, pay worries of taking time off.
00:30:13 - Alexandrina highlights how grief is not failure. Care and needing care is not failure.
00:31:29 - Toni-Dee talks about the grief that came in COVID times.
00:34:18 - Transition Music
00:34:27 - Toni-Dee asks about things in your practice that you have committees to doing differently. That you've decided that this is a way you're going to do something that, like, maybe doesn't lean into this idea of like capitalist success, but you're doing it anyway. Like, is there any part of your practice that you've, you've changed?
00:34:48 - Ray talks about aspiration, clear boundaries when working, email vs messages, accessibility to work life and saying yes to too much work.
00:40:32 - Alexandrina talks about working with an associate artistic director, juggling boundaries between care and work relationships and acknowledging these blended relationships.
00:44:41 - Transition Music
00:44:59 - Alexandrina begins talking about fluctuating disabilities, having a support worker, hypervisibility by others who have funded access needs, expensiveness of disability and having to use production budgets to fund access also.
00:47:30 - Ray talks about budgeting, having to do in-kind work and explaining your accommodations.
00:48:57 - Guests recount their stories of crying at work and having to continue on.
00:49:49 - Transition Music
00:49:53 - Toni-Dee asks about an example of when Ray worked with a disabled team and asking them to talk about that experience.
00:50:23 - Ray talks about their experience working with a disabled team which was wonderful helped by being well funded.
00:52:23 - Toni-Dee asks Alexandrina ‘have there been any processes that have brought you joy? And I'm particularly curious about where things have not gone the way that you thought they were going to go, and yet still its difference was a good thing. Its difference was an opportunity for you to do something different that was joyful.’
00:53:25 - Alexandrina answers talking about funding that they got allowing them to take their time with processes, artists’ needs being able to be managed without compromise and being able to instill care for the artists involved.
00:57:23 - Guest discussion end and Transition Sound Effect
00:57:26 - Toni-Dee thanks all participants and the team who helped make the podcast.